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Member Since:
11/2/2004
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| Well, it's been fun guys. In case you haven't realized, as I'm sure
some of you have, this xanga was a joke. Nearly all of you fell for it,
as if it wasn't obvious. Maybe get out of the house some more?
Some of you were sympathetic. That's good. Other's were downright
assholes. You made us laugh even harder. But most of your comments just
showed how shallow some people can be. As if you don't have anything
better to do than provoke some depressed kid online.
I'd apologize for those of you that actually took time to genuinely
care, but that would defeat the purpose of this all. Maybe next time
you'll be speaking to somebody that actually exists.
SLIPKNOT!!!!!111. Hah, tools.
Thanks for providing us with something to laugh and talk about when bored.
Yours truly,
-Anonymous.
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"
Sick, get sick on this
You motherfuckers make me
Wanna slit my wrist
Sick, so sick of this
I wanna slit my wrists"
- MuRdeRdoLLz
hey.
so 2day suked like alwayz. i wuz supsoed 2 hang w/ my friend, but he
fukin had 2 work. i wish i had a job but no1 will hire me. so my mom
braught me 2 the dr. 2day n fukkin they r putin me bak on
antidepresants. tho this time im on 'welbutrin' insted of celexa. wtf
ever. i hate pills. n on top of that i have a new coucellar at pine
rest. maybe my life will turn around... haha, NOT. specialy not w/ all
u fukkers saying i deserve to die, n that im stupid and a fag cuz i
cut, well FUK YOU.
i cant stand ek. i hate it when stupid jocks n preps come up n mock me
cuz i ware black or cuz they see cuts n they mock me and it pisses me
off. well its not like mocking me is gunna make me feel better n stop
wareing black or stop cuting! cuz when u do that, it makes me wan2 cut
more cuz theirs so much pain bilt up inside.
anywayz, i decieedd to rite another poem last nite cence i had nothin 2 do.. so here goez...
all you do is bitch,
and all i do is bleed.
my heart,
my soul,
my rist,
my life..
all i do is bleed.
you fukin piss me off
all u do is yell
i cant sleep n e more,
u fukkin whore,
so i stay up and cut,
n wish i would die.
crying..
it feels like im dying..
waiting, and bleeding,
crying, and dying..
why? why me?
why does everything always happen to me?
i wish i was dead.
my frend told me it waz good.. i waz
thinking of trying out for the skool newspaper. maybe then i could help
bo get kids to understand what assholes they all r 4 mocking us ppl who
truly hurt inside.
well i g2g... im dun w/ this shit..... whatever....
- me
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well im bak.....
i did a lot of thking last nite.. i decided not 2 do it..of
cource i cut, cuz i had to get rid of the pain.. but i didnt go all the
way,.. UNLIKE SUM OF U FUKKERZ WOULD LOVE 2 SEE ME DO!!!!!
i finaly got my cd player bak frum stupid mr heard. fukin
asshole almost gave me a detention cuz he hates white ppl. stupid
cuntface. whatever.
ppl make me mad. obviously lots of ppl on line do too. but i hate the
supid wanna-be goth kids at ek. their so fukin stupid.. they wish they
new whut pain relayt waz. I hate the stupid punx too. they wish they
were punk. they don't even listen to punk music! fukin blink 182, GC!!
and green day are the fukin punk shit! not stupid cure. their jus fukin
disco n shit from the fukin 80's.. n ramone is a dude from brittan. stupid.
anywayz... fuk this.. my mom has to get on the comp..
fukin bitchin' at me again. I DIDN'T DO A GODDAMN THING!! WHY THE FUK R
U SUCH A FUKKING BITCH 2 ME?!?!?!?! MOTHER FUKKER!
FUK YOU, BITCH!!!!
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| 1nce again i find myself mixed with feelings. sum of u r so nice 2 me.
it makes me feel special. i thnk sum of u r like my only friendz. i
dunno. nobody understands me like sum of u have shown. thanks 2 all
those that ive talked to on AIM and hve helped me outt w/my probz. it
takes me away from the cutting, at least 4 a lttle bit.
but u jerks have ruined me. those that hve constantly told me 2 die. i dint think id start heering it at skool, in person. but i have. n that kills me.
literally. i came home and did u know what. and im about 2 go do that
now. this might be it. im soo hurt. 2day this girl acme up to me while
i wuz doin my makeup at lunch n said, 'hey goth why dont u go fix ur
makeup somewhere else. maybe kill urself too.' what can mke ppl so mean?!?! FuKk ThEm!!!
ThE OnLy ThInG ThAt KeEpZ Me GoIn Iz ThAt I KnoW ThEsE PeEpz WiLL BuRn In HeLl SuM DaY!!!!!!!!!1
seriuously, kan u guyz give me a good reazon to live? i can't think of 1. plz, tell me.
ill end this wiht sum of my wordz. i dunno if ill be back to reed ur commentz ever again though.
The Pain Inside
look into this soul through my window
see what i see
feel what i feel
hear what i hear
'die motherfucker die'
as i try try try, so hard to grasp
the meaning
of this demeaning
life...
do u know what its like
what its like to feel the acid
run down ur cheeks?
my life is so bleak
'do it the right way'
as i try try try, so hard to do
what youve all
with my last gasps
shoved down my throat
u will see. u will see me
face down in that crimson puddle
fishing for safety
i hope ur all happy
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| i dont no wut 2 think. all these comments, sum of u r really suportive,
sum of u r just assholes and dont get it. 2 those that r suportive,
thank u sooo much. it means a lot to me, trying to deal with this shit.
i feel like u guys r the only 1s that understand me, and nobody else
does. i wish i had friendz like sum of u. as for the other assholes, im
hurt. i read sum of these comments last night and i didnt know what 2
do. u guys r my peers, and ur telling me to kill myself. i dont want 2
do it. i dont want 2 cut. but i do, becuz its my escape. i red sum of
those last night and thats what i did, becyuz i dun know how else 2
deal with these feelings.
n e wayz, im trying to get help. i talked 2 my counselor n shit at
skool, but she didnt beleve me about sum of the things my mom duz. it
wuz like she wuz attackign me. and then she made me leave becuz she had
another kid comming in. so, i dun think that will werk. i need to talk
2 sum1 else or some shit.
n fukk u guyz that say im tryin to get attention!!! im just expressing
my self. i dint ask u to give a shit. or not. and those that do, thank
u so much again. ill try to 4get these AsShOlEs!!!1 i think they just
need 2 chill out and listen to some SLIPKNOT!!!!
SuM Of U ShOuLd Go FuKk UrSeLvEs!!!!!!!!!!!!!11
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